Surrendering to the Unknown: A Retrograde Check-In
+Selena Summer, the final eclipse, and redefining your past in the present
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Important Dates to Note:
March 27: Venus retrograde enters Pisces
March 29: New Moon partial SOLAR eclipse in Aries
March 29: Mercury Retrograde enters Pisces
April 7: Mercury retrograde ends, Mercury stations direct in Pisces
April 12: Venus retrograde ends, Venus stations direct in Pisces
As of the 20th, we are now firmly planted in Aries season, a time for us to get bold, pop the top off of issues that tap our rage, and understand that anger is a completely valid emotion to have when people cross our boundaries. With Aries being the natural ruler of the first house, and also the first member of the zodiac, the start of Aries season also signals the start of an astrological New Year. This is why every year, a few weeks before January 1st, I try to signal the masses that the middle of winter isn’t exactly a great time to set resolutions, try to get back into the gym 5x/week if you’ve regularly been sedentary, or any other metaphorical “jump start” situation. That time is actually now.
We are meeting with the North Node of Destiny and initiation in dreamy Pisces, South Node of karma and familiarity in Virgo, Neptune is about to enter Aries for the first time since the 1800’s, giving us a cultural reset, and the eclipses are in full swing with the first of 2025 being back on March 14th in Virgo, and our upcoming eclipse on the 29th in Aries. This is a time to surrender to the unknown, listen to your gut instincts, and prepare for a reality that we not only know nothing about, but may be even better than our human mind could even fathom. Can you believe in it?
Pop Culture Astro: Selena Gomez’s New Album
It’s no coincidence that globally-recognized pop star Selena Gomez, after a five year long hiatus has decided to reemerge from her songbird slumber and release her newest album just a day into Aries season, and in between the Virgo and Aries eclipses.
The “Sunset Blvd” singer partnered with her fiancé, Benny Blanco, to concoct an album that felt like an answered prayer to years of speculation, online hate, and obsession that stemmed from her extremely public break-up from Justin Bieber and his subsequent marriage to Hailey Bieber. If you’re as chronically online as I am, you’ve probably already seen the seven part series chronicling Hailey’s hyper-fixation, angst, and imitation of Selena. I’m not typically one for celebrity drama, however, this album, the underpinnings of anger that rumble throughout Selena’s long-awaited clap back, and the witness that we all get to play to many years of harassment is finally coming to a head. A long awaited and well deserved response to someone else’s odd and tormented behavior.
I’m a huge proponent for the victim of bullying having their own redemption arc; a moment to shine after a long period of being bogged down by other’s pointed, negative energy from someone else — even if that moment of redemption comes later on, or feels “oddly timed” to outside observers.
Please understand that this new album “I Said I Love You First” is a chronicle of a multi-talented being reclaiming her voice after years of betrayal and one-sided competitions. Personally, I feel this a little too deep, with a few situations coming to mind while listening to this, like:
An ex who told me I was “the one” months before sleeping with my friend.
Old friends that I only understood after watching a TikTok video that reminded me to be sad for people who are cruel to you, not angry. I only realized after our fallout that I am simply an object of fixation for sick people. But their words and actions are not personal.
Ending my engagement with someone and the stories I have from those 2.5 years are so vulnerable and twisted for me that I still have only told a handful of my closest friends what was said and done… and asked them all to take that information to the grave.
However, listening to How Does it Feel to be Forgotten on repeat over the last couple of days has me remembering that someone else lying, deceiving, or betraying you does not diminish your worth. But it does speak volumes over their worth.
So to this, I will repeat after Selena for these types of people in my life, and hope that you can in yours:
“you’re so embarrassing,
go cry where no one’s watching,
I can’t imagine it,
how does it feel to be forgotten?”
Forgetting other people means releasing the grip, the pain, the fear, the rejection and allowing the version of them that you knew to exist only in the past and not taking them into your future.
Not trying to make sense of them.
Not wasting energy trying to figure out things that people have done to you that left painful wounds over your heart.
Instead, with this new void space after releasing outdated characters from your life’s story, I encourage you to sit through the current astrology (Mercury and Venus retrograde (ending April 7th and 12th respectively), eclipses, a pile-up of Pisces placements making us all a little nostalgic and sensitive) and use the this time to look at your past or any pain that you’re carrying around through a new lens.
Maybe some of your deepest points of shame actually belong on the shoulders of the person who inflicted your pain. Are you willing to surrender it all so that it can fall into the arms of the rightful person that needs to sit with what they have done?
Drop the heavy weight that you are carrying around, and realize that surrender and apathy dance a very fine line from one another. Trust yourself enough to know that you will take action when the timing is right again, later on.
My Life Changed on a Water Bed
This time is encouraging all of us to pause, reflect, and get more deeply connected to our own inner voices more than ever. I used this retrograde period to stop at a place in LA called Quantum Clinic to have a healing session called a "scalar upgrade”. I had never met anyone who had done this type of healing before, and it was my first time trying it, so I entered into the unknown for what laid ahead of me that day.
I met with a guide before we started and had my internal environment quantified: tracking my heart rate variability and my brain-heart connection (a.k.a. my resonance). After, I was guided into a room with a twin size water bed, covered with a blanket, my eyes covered with an eye mask, and large, cushy headphones placed over my ears. Throughout the 45-minute session, different tones and sounds played to help guide me into a deeper and deeper state of healing. I was told ahead of time that if I was struggling to align my heart, my head, and myself to my purpose, that this session would get me there. They weren’t lying.
I came out of my meditative state with passive tears streaming down my cheeks, feeling so free and light in a way I hadn't in years - if ever. I sat back down with my guide and explained to her that I have been living with a tense energetic “brick” from my sit bones to my breast bone that spewed upward into intensity over my head. At first during our initial check-in I explained “oh, my tenseness is trying to transform into intensity!” and when I came out of my scalar upgrade, I realized “oh… needing everything in life to be or feel intense is making me feel unsafe and causing my body to sit in a state of tenseness…”. She sighed and put her hand over her heart: “what a beautiful realization”.
Tense > Intensity, but the truth is actually that the search for intensity 24/7 is making me tense.
I also want you to take note of what feels true about your own blocks during these retrogrades. Is there any chance that some truth about you or your life is sitting on the other side of the same coin about something you believe? Looking at you from opposite sides of the same axis?
A similar message continues to come up in my personal conversations about life’s stages not feeling the way you anticipated them to feel, and having that disconnect not sway you from where you are headed. Check in with yourself in this moment: is there something that you know deep in your bones you are meant to be doing, but don’t have the support or encouragement from others? I am here, writing this to tell you that what you know is right for you… is right for you.
Retrograde Horoscopes for Each Sign
Read on below for tips and tricks to navigate the retrogrades and the upcoming eclipse in Aries on the 29th (the last of a chapter that started back in 2023) by your rising sign first, sun sign second.
Aries & Aries Rising:
The new moon solar eclipse in your sign on March 29 is ushering in
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